I haven’t quite been the greatest at updating this month, even this time around working at spirit feels different. I caught myself the other day, and was thinking damn my energy is so low when I come here I spend half of my shift spaced out in the trick r treat & Killer Klowns aisle. I spend a lot of time heading to the back room whenever I feel like I’m going to just bawl my eyes out. There’s a lot going on, & I’m trying not to make the same mistake I’ve made in the past before where I just kinda put the same crusty band aid over the issue when you can clearly see the wound has started to bleed right through it but you don’t have the energy to change it so you just pretend it’s not there and you’re okay you’re fucking a-okay. The reality is, there are a couple of things in my life that have ended and gone out the door. One after the other, while i was processing the first the second one happened and I was already wounded physically and mentally. I’ve had the chance to vent to a lot of my really close friends and man ! The advice and support I’ve received is incredible. My posts have been more sappy than the usual. And I am really taking my time to wallow in this sadness. I am letting it consume me now, because once the storm is cleared, the scars will be less visible. What did I expect when there was lies and deceit from the beginning? You can only take so much hurt, no matter how much I tried to show this person i cared, the more they took advantage.I’m tired and have decided to put my mental being first and respect & nurture myself. It takes strength to pick yourself up and realize that some malicious people are better off not existing in your life and the feelings you have for them are best off dead and buried. Better 2-3 years than wasting a decade or a lifetime.
“Sometimes dead is better”
Sorry I just had to.
No regrets!
I’m learning to do things by myself, that I use to do on the regular 7-8 years ago. I went to the movies alone the other day and that was soothing. I sat there with my raspberry ICEE & Halloween pretzels completely consumed by this animated movie. The last movie I watched alone in the theater was dark shadows, I think I was 20 or 21? It had been a while.
Anyways for those that have been following me on my writing journey I’ve got a special treat for you at the end of the month. You’ll see.
Happy things that have taken place ? Attending 31 nights of Halloween with my favorite people last Tuesday. The square heritage museum is beautiful and such a great piece of history …why don’t they make houses like that anymore ?! Like why?! My bestie was filling us in on a little history about the place. Now I can’t help but wonder what does it look like in the daylight ?!
Just a couple of photos of the experience but you had to be there. My cousin just happened to be the one getting all the magazine worthy shots. We saw a lot of cutesy spooky outfits, the people in costumes were doing a phenomenal job at staying in character. Specially the girl that was dressed up as Wednesday she was great I woulda cracked a smile or something. We also took photos with the Sanderson sisters, we went trick r treating and we saw some familiar faces in the crowd. We saw people making tick tocks & there was some hilarious commentary by Georgie.
But what you’re really here for ….
The highlight of this past week for me was getting to watch my favorite singer shine in a Ramones cover band….ugh !
He sang to me when they played one of my favorites “I just want to have something to do” & I melted just melted right there in front of everyone.There’s no footage but it will forever be in Chibi’s brain archives. Getting to see him back to back these past two weeks have been a great joy. And I really hope he does more shows like these because it makes my heart full. So thankful for brain dead studios for the movie premier and this last minute show. Ok ok I’ll shut up about him gawwwsh. Take it easy
Happy Halloween to me.
A couple of things the new Scream trailer will be out tomorrow, I believe we’re all very excited for that.Halloween kills is this Thursday night & there’s a show at the Zebulon on Friday night. Trap girl is playing ! Come out peeps.
Anyone doing any pumpkin carving? writing scary stories ? Reading a creepy book ?
Till next time blog people & readers of crappy blogs.
Go hug a cat and if you’re a allergic tough luck my dudes ! Tough luck.
