Don’t hold back I just cringe..

 Let me set the scene for you It’s Monday night, I’m listening to The cure, sporting my fabulous Garfield jammies & I’m drinking some earl grey tea straight from my Ghostface mug. 

I had pancakes for dinner …idk why I thought I would share that with you because breakfast for dinner is one of my favorite things. 

I just got off the phone with my bestie & this foo provided me with a real neat doodle. 

Far from boring where the events that took place on Sunday night. 

Where do I even begin ? 

The fact that I was probably the only person sporting a denim jacket at Substance cracks me up, I stuck out like a dick on a cake. My outfit was poorly planned as you can see. 

I headed to the Belasco theater about an hour before choir boy went on. I get there, and it’s at this really old timey theater, the walls are screaming with endless stories of the 1930s. (If I’m being honest with you I believe the last time I was there was to see Shannon & the clams back in October, I was intoxicated & I don’t really recall taking the time to appreciate the architecture) 

The staircases, the pattern, the set up it was  draculas castle meets titanic almost ? 

The Belasco has got to be one of the most beautiful venues in LA. I can’t say the same for the overpriced drinks though. 

As I slowly stepped foot inside looking like a lost kid on their first day of middle school & without a familiar face to approach. I made my way to the main stage where I was exposed to the red lights & the tons of people who were adorned in all shades of black, the leather skirts , the bondage belts, the berets, the Sioxsie make up. This was your typical scene in that movie love and human remains where Thomas Gibson’s character makes his way into the dive bar to find his punk lover. All the goths were on display as if ready to put on a spooky play. 

I found a spot to stand in while I waited for my cousin & the Georgie. I watched as choir boy was setting up for their set. I’d be lying to you if I didn’t wish they would play 

rowdy friends, that song has become a must whenever I’m getting my stuff ready in the mornings it’s a soothing song & it strongly resonates with me at the moment.

My cousin gets there and we go grab a drink only to be met with a way too familiar face from 2018 , I won’t mention his name  in case he reads this, it was hilarious … awkward & just universe really? 

You know ? When someone flirts so hard & just keeps the free drinks going all night…some of the stuff being said becomes cringe only to be met with I have a partner …& then it’s triple cringe ! 

then why say anything ? Men are weird. Am I right? The thought of dating again is mortifying. I don’t want to anymore. Do you really believe there is someone out there that you’re supposed to spend the rest of your life with? 

People change, people grow …I can’t imagine. Ignore me if you’re in a happy relationship this doesn’t apply to you or anyone this is what I’m currently thinking.

I guess some of us just really have awful luck in the people we choose to open up to. The saying “you never really know someone” implies in my recent life. Any who I digress (complaining aside) 

   

Choir boy hits the stage & the keyboards hit me like a warm blanket on the coldest night in December. Adams voice hits like the tightest hug from an old friend telling you “things are going to be ok”. They open up with “it’s over” a favorite of mine. We cheer on, and let out howls of excitement. In between songs Adam let’s out as could only be described as “the feral yelp of a rodeo clown” & we are amused. Trulys in hand, big smiles on as we sang along to “blood moon”, “leave me be” & “shatter”. We cracked jokes in between songs because why nawt? The buzz felt just right. After 45 minutes ….If it was up to me id have them play another 45 minutes. They didn’t do sweet candy this time ..in case you’re wondering I wept on the inside. We all decided to head back to the bar, where I was met with my first free drink of the night. We picked a corner to stand in, & just went on about choir boy’s set. As we were joking, from the corner of my eye, I see a man with blacked out arms, I nearly slapped both my cousin and her bf. He’s passing by he’s in a rush you can tell probably to go catch the next band, so I power walk to catch up to him & guise it was like trying to approach a cat. But long story short thanks to Georgie who called out to him I got my photo with Mr. Davey & had a brief interaction with him. I have met him a couple of times before at signings so this was nice to catch him outside of an event for any of his bands.I composed myself …I swear I really did. 

My friends left shortly after that , I stayed to watch John Maus & Health,who are both incredible acts. I had seen Health before and was completely sucked in by their sound & stage presence. And the way the crowd just goes bat shit crazy for them. 

I didn’t take any photos , I guess I didn’t take as many photos as I should’ve. Heck I didn’t even know where the merch tables were. I wanted to take it in as much as I could because the ticket was pricey yo!  & although I like documenting , it was kinda nice to not have to worry about it. I am proud of the choir boy footage I captured. If you’d like to see head on over to @heychibibunny I have a story file under choir boy.

Here’s a random photo of one of the restrooms of the bars I ended up at afterwards…. The art was speaking my language. 

I got lost in the city lights of downtown once more and stumbled upon bars I had never been to or even knew existed. I became enthralled with the pretty drinks once more. And the great experience at substance…I’ll be seeing a lot more of DTLA these days & im thrilled to explore the hidden corners. 

And just like that my post comes to an end…

Be safe y’all till next time 

P.s. don’t forget to hug your cat & if you’re allergic then I pity you ! Ha! 

~ Chibi 

Eat my fuck.

Hello ! It’s your friendly but terrible October guide…Chibbs! 

I haven’t quite been the greatest at updating this month, even this time around working at spirit feels different. I caught myself the other day, and was thinking damn my energy is so low when I come here I spend half of my shift spaced out in the trick r treat & Killer Klowns aisle. I spend a lot of time heading to the back room whenever I feel like I’m going to just bawl my eyes out. There’s a lot going on, & I’m trying not to make the same mistake I’ve made in the past before where I just kinda put the same crusty band aid over the issue when you can clearly see the wound has started to bleed right through it but you don’t have the energy to change it so you just pretend it’s not there and you’re okay you’re fucking a-okay. The reality is, there are a couple of things in my life that have ended and gone out the door. One after the other, while i was processing the first the second one happened and I was already wounded physically and mentally. I’ve had the chance to vent to a lot of my really close friends and man ! The advice and support I’ve received is incredible. My posts have been more sappy than the usual. And I am really taking my time to wallow in this sadness. I am letting it consume me now, because once the storm is cleared, the scars will be less visible. What did I expect when there was lies and deceit from the beginning? You can only take so much hurt, no matter how much I tried to show this person i cared, the more they took advantage.I’m tired and have decided to put my mental being first and respect & nurture myself. It takes strength to pick yourself up and realize that some malicious people are better off not existing in your life and the feelings you have for them are best off dead and buried. Better 2-3 years than wasting a decade or a lifetime. 

“Sometimes dead is better”

Sorry I just had to. 

No regrets! 

I’m learning to do things by myself, that I use to do on the regular 7-8 years ago. I went to the movies alone  the other day and that was soothing. I sat there with my raspberry ICEE & Halloween pretzels completely consumed by this animated movie. The last movie I watched alone in the theater was dark shadows, I think I was 20 or 21? It had been a while. 

Anyways for those that have been following me on my writing journey I’ve got a special treat for you at the end of the month. You’ll see. 

Happy things that have taken place ? Attending 31 nights of Halloween with my favorite people last Tuesday. The square heritage museum is beautiful and such a great piece of history …why don’t they make houses like that anymore ?! Like why?! My bestie was filling us in on a little history about the place. Now I can’t help but wonder what does it look like in the daylight ?!

Just a couple of photos of the experience but you had to be there. My cousin just happened to be the one getting all the magazine worthy shots. We saw a lot of cutesy spooky outfits, the people in costumes were doing a phenomenal job at staying in character. Specially the girl that was dressed up as Wednesday she was great I woulda cracked a smile or something. We also took photos with the Sanderson sisters, we went trick r treating and we saw some familiar faces in the crowd. We saw people making tick tocks & there was some  hilarious commentary by Georgie. 

But what you’re really here for ….

The highlight of this past week for me was getting to watch my favorite singer shine in a Ramones cover band….ugh ! 

He sang to me when they played one of my favorites “I just want to have something to do”  & I melted just melted right there in front of everyone.There’s no footage but it will forever be in Chibi’s brain archives. Getting to see him back to back these past two weeks have been a great joy. And I really hope he does more shows like these because it makes my heart full. So thankful for brain dead studios for the movie premier and this last minute show. Ok ok I’ll shut up about him gawwwsh. Take it easy 

Happy Halloween to me. 

A couple of things the new Scream trailer will be out tomorrow, I believe we’re all very excited for that.Halloween kills is this Thursday night & there’s a show at the Zebulon on Friday night. Trap girl is playing ! Come out peeps.

Anyone doing any pumpkin carving? writing scary stories ? Reading a creepy book ? 

Till next time blog people & readers of crappy blogs. 

Go hug a cat and if you’re a allergic tough luck my dudes ! Tough luck. 

October guide & Sliving

 Hiiiii 

Getting to update this thing finally because i have time and energy. If I were to tell you the amount of caffeine I consumed today … you would probably wanna check my pulse? Ionno. 

I’m feeling chatty so let me update you on a couple of things. Dunkin’ Donuts has their pumpkin coffee selection out & yes that means their donut holes,donut & muffin. Starbucks pumpkin stuff will be coming in hot next week on Tuesday to be exact for all those pumpkin sluts out there. I of course had a pumpkin iced latte signature with Oatmilk and lemme tell you it knocked the depression right out of me…kiddin. It was sweet it was everything I had been craving all year long. I also tried their donuts, I inhaled two in seconds to be exact. Just… amazing is all. October is already stealing the spotlight from September and she’s just waiting to greet us with everything pumpkin.

Sho….

My cousin,being the insane shopper that she is talked me into wandering inside the home goods in Glendale. What?! Are you crazy?! That’s a total trap !!! I was clutching my wallet and trying real hard not to hyperventilate. They already had a haunt inside by the entrance. Great… this is the ultimate test. 

Not even 30 seconds in, & temptation slapped me right across the face…HARD. Look at this …I confess I am a sucker for anything  Halloween peanuts …how can you nawwt be?!? I was admiring these as Jess was talking to me and at the same time my brain is having a conversation … I mean do I really like really need these ?!? For who? For the cats ? Maybe. For building a fort ? What are you 5? It’s fine just take a photo and I’ll get em next time.

Ohh but it continued…

A fucking Frankenstein eye mask?! Shut the f up. I’m out … Have you seen anything more adorable today? Like besides your neighbors cat? Or your own cat?  Betcha haven’t. Anyway we proceeded further and further into the aisle. It was like that scene in Jurassic park the lost world where they are running through the grass and they are getting pounced on by raptors. Well the raptors were the Halloween items…

This devil ghost seemed to be begging for one of us to take him home …. he was one of the items I could’ve bought? But held off.

I didn’t photograph all the cool items I spotted but these are just some of the few. The kitchen aisle displayed the most beautiful mugs and table decor. Heads up if you’re looking for new kitchen stuff or if you’re planning on throwing the most wicked party of 2021. 

Our next stop was Marshalls… this is the main one. Last year they had tons of cups and entire bed sets of peanuts & they also had everything beetle juice and hocus pocus. Cups,mugs, aprons, plates, candles, spoons and forks. There was absolutely no self control last year. This time around I went in thinking I don’t have room for more stuff but maybe just maybe I could grab a few things later. They didn’t have much yet but these are a few items I did fall in love with. 

This spooky peanuts set comes in every size for the entire family. Too bad it doesn’t come in cat size…

           

This one was my favorite , a kitty bed/dog bed … I did stand by the aisle and just really contemplated this one because every cat needs a fall themed bed right? 

That concludes my short update folks… 

As September approaches I will be posting up more events that are happening. Something that inspired me was, people are always asking how do I find out about all these cool places etc. so I’ll be doing some stress free guiding. 

Have you gotten your horror nights tickets yet? Those are on sale. And all the spirit Halloween stores are opening this weekend. As for films candyman is finally out next Thursday night. 

Stay tune for more and if I’m not mistaken the pumpkin beers are hitting the shelves soon…. 

Chibi out. 

Go hug a cat.. if you’re allergic then must suck to be ya. 

I’m feeling woozy here...

Happy August 1st peeps! 

~~ Pour some of that Earl Grey creme tea with soy milk or your matcha whatever works for you..you’re gonna wanna read this one...the bad luck streak was unforgiven this time around.I will try to keep everything in browsable categories. I do have a ton to say. 

..Panic struck on Sunday morning as I opened my eyes and the ceiling was spinning. I felt like I had downed 6 shots and four beers the previous night. But wait a sec I thought....I haven’t been drinking. I attempted to get up again...whoahh. Nope back down we go...what the.. so I waited a couple of minutes and I got up again slowly this time. Mmmhh..it’s probably a case of dehydration.The weather ain’t stopping and I’ve been sweating more.Whatevs. I’ll just drink some water some electrolytes case closed. Monday rolls around and the same thing happens. I probably didn’t drink enough water. So I double up on my H2O.

Tuesday... ohhh fuck. The entire room is spinning and I’m seeing two Mcmittens.... am i in the shining?! now this is the part where I begin to freak out. Do I need to go to the hospital? Is this the end? You know just being overly dramatic. 

Except I was lying down and the spinning wouldn’t stop for a minute or two.

I went to work like that, feeling nauseous and fatigued I can’t miss days.I've got a feline bday coming up. It was a hassle at work, I was trying hard not to make sudden movements. I was then told it could be BPPV vertigo. 

And was recommended to try an exercise known as the Epley maneuver. Doesn't it sound like a WWF finishing move? obviously not as catchy as the tombstone piledriver, or the Swanton bomb. It's suppose to cure the nauseous and dizzy episodes. In case you’re wondering what BPPV vertigo is.. It’s when the crystals in your ears are loose, there’s too much calcium and that’s what causes the build up. I had no idea you could get that. The vertigo lasted about a week. And I’m happy to inform you,I’m finally waking up without feeling like I’m in a psychedelic music video with my bloody valentine playing in the background. 

 A lot has happened in a week, I was forced to buy a new phone since mine gave out after a year and 6 months. The end of an era some might say, it was a crappy phone, with not the greatest quality and shitty  audio but boy did i love that phone.

This also happened on Sunday, it bit the dust it was dead, it wouldn't even turn on, and i was more than bummed because i had already made the big purchase of the month. I don’t wanna spend 300 or 400 dollars I began to slam it against the wall, how do you give a phone CPR? 

So i haul ass to Boost Mobile & after doing some research and overthinking I now own an iphone ES. It’s  the tiniest but cutest thing, it's so weird i haven't had an Iphone since 2018.

I also replaced my old bootleg oxfords, I am ready to sport the new one’s at shows. If I’m being honest this is the most i've ever spent on shoes, i kept yelling this is a grown up purchase the entire way home. To try to push away the guilt of stabbing my poor earnings.

I suppose it wasn't much of a bad luck week, i understand things get old and you need to replace them every now and then but if i can avoid that it's a win for my wallet. 

Alright let’s get to the exciting stuff enough about spending. Last night was the second show back since the lockdown.Who did we go see you might ask? It was the line up of your high school dreams my friends.

The Los Angeles Misfits, The Cramps children Teenage Goo Muck & the Gabba Gabba heys! All in one night. Rewind to early last year i would religiously go watch goo goo muck every chance i got. They’re phenomenal live, & they look good playing bad music for bad people. No pun intended. 

We get there & we’re a block away from the venue but you can hear the Los Angeles misfits playing already. My tummy tightens, eyes dilated like an excited cat & the smile is visible even underneath the mask.We get upstairs and there they are, serving some punk rock in your face, pumping up the crowd. We meet up with my friend itzel who is already there dressed in black with beer in hand & new fellow friend Deeana (I apologize if I butchered the spelling) We make our way over to get some drinks & a familiar face approaches us. It’s Tony ! He is known for spreading his knowledge on schrooms. He’s an advocate of the mushrooms & I tell ppl he’s a schroom dealer. 

We get our drinks, take a seat and kinda just take it all in, this is still surreal.

“We’re not a band we’re just best friends with instruments” 

I didn’t get more photos of them but they really satisfied my hunger from wanting to hear old school misfits material live. They got lots of love and support. My favorite was when they stormed into the song “Halloween” classic. 

Teenage goo goo muck was next. 

We slowly made our way closer to the stage to see our fellow peeps up close. Eddie ran over to get them waters before they started. That man is secretly like their roadie or tour manager. He loves them so much.

Make no mistake Goo goo muck kept the party going taking us into a different realm with favorites like

”let’s get fucked up”, “human fly”, “Garbage man”, “new kind of kick” & “drug train” 

I always like to imagine that Lux interior is side stage sporting his leather pants and heels watching them with a big grin on his face rooting them on.

Mad daddy would be proud ! 

 

The set was killer & i suppose this was also a chance to test out the new phone camera & get some killer shots. 

The lady behind the drums is my favorite redhead Laney ! 

“You ain’t no punk you punk”

                      

                The camera is good but credit goes to Kira who is just too damn photogenic.

              The next act was the Gabba Gabba heys ... I had never seen them before. A ramones cover band, these are four dudes that dress up and make face expressions like the Ramones. And sound exactly like them!!!!! It was beautiful and rather sentimental. Well mostly because you know? You just know. 

We were standing in front of the guy that was playing Dee Dee & the set list was right under our noses. 

I almost fainted when I saw that pet sematary was on the set list. 

Ahh you guise my eyes got a bit watery. I was overcome with emotion. 

I handed a Eddie a $50 & told him to get us all shots because I wanted to take them before that song came up. 

For Dee Dee, Joey, Tommy & Johnny. 

                  

  I don’t wanna be buried in a pet sematary I don’t want to live my life again”

These two were taken by Eddie aka the three imaginary boys zine. It was amazing, & if I remember correctly the last song they played was “I believe in miracles “

We got out of there with our voices lost,  smeared eye liner, & our therapy session fix. Second show back was a success & it was a lot of fun. 

I do apologize for writing such a long one this time around but till next time. 

Go hug a cat, & if you’re allergic then it’s your loss. 

Chibi & Felines. 

"You won't find him here...he's such a party poooper"

 It's leo season, can you tell by the scorching weather? & the pretty flowers in their prime?

I'm currently plastered all over my bed, like a scrambled egg. Fan on, felines wondering when their next meal or treat will be. 

I hope you find yourself somewhere cool on this sinful Friday, with fresh lemonade & some expensive AC. All wishes aside, how are you ? What have you been up to? What have you been teaching yourself? 

About a little more than a week ago...going on two weeks i decided to delete my main instagram account. Why? In all honesty i think i just needed to break off from it. It was very time consuming for me, & i hate to admit but i get easily influenced to spend my earnings when i have it. The need to want to be out at a cool bar, or an overpriced dinner just becomes the main goals for the weekend. My self esteem was the lowest it's ever been. I felt disgusting just by the sight of my bloated face in the mirror. This double chin is going nowhere i thought. I cried & had a really long meltdown. I wanted to run off into the woods and become roomies with the witch in  Hansel & Gretel. Sweets for life? Sure.

I had to pick myself up and be kind, slow it down on the booze. Walk to work and from work.  I made feline friends along the way. The first day just as Days of the phoenix was blasting through my headphones. There he was a chubby ginger tabby cat. He was so beautiful and we stared at each other for quite sometime. I didn't get his name but he looked like Garfield. That was a nice way to start the morning. There's a few that I've come across. Stopping to pet a cat is almost like a meditation moment.

Kitty talk aside, i am in better spirits, & needless to say I'm going to be alright. 

I will share my last adventure, i went on, my last day off which was last friday. My co-Workers had been wanting to hit up little tokyo and Daiso & i could NOT pass up this opportunity. That just means getting to spend time with them outside of work and stocking up on more cute stationery items. 

Who doesn't love Aggretsuko on snack packaging? 

They weren't that yummy though. 

Funky taste calls for 4/10 

Would it really be little tokyo without getting a drink with a cute name? 

This one was called honey bear and it tasted like a thai tea with a bit of honey and caramel. 

Kawaii forever?!? 

Reggie is the gal wearing glasses & itzel is the tall one.

They are both Aries ghouls! 

Not pictured were my other coworkers who were sadly stuck at work. 

       But tada!!! We did the mandatory photo thing. They came out real cute, it was fun. I wish we could've stayed longer. But we all work 6 days a week and long hour shifts.  

Do i leave you with a final thought? 

It's nice to be almost off the grid, &  to be more in the moment. There's no selfie time for now. It feels nice & sometimes its that little boost of self confidence that we need but that fades away quickly. There's not a filter strong enough to fix the reality that is your mental health declining. 

I'm just speaking on how i see it & how i felt. 

Not trying to offend anyone. Sooo Shhhhhh.

Till next time 

Stay safe ! Go hangout with some cats, & if you're allergic ....wouldn't wanna be ya! 

P.s. current music Peach kelli pop, men i trust, & the pats pats ! 

- Chibi & Felines 

Reader beware you're in for a scare....

 As I stated last night, I'm still riding that happy chemical wave. It's nice to have events that are happening back to back & then the only thing yoi look forward to is a power nap session on the weekends. Am i right?  It's nice to be busy, & to be working and seeing it pay off. Workaholism is a thing again. 

Let me just say, going to live shows again feels like a dream. So far away from the reality we were living in a year ago. I missed it more than i realized. I'm ready for the new memories.

Let's talk spooky stuff 

About a week ago, we saw this flyer for fear street surfing the web. And we had some free time we decided to investigate the curiosity was through the roof for this one! 

It's located on Melrose, & its made to look like your dream Spook show VHS store from the 90s. Or as some passerbys called it "a weird bar". If you remember being that kid that passed the third grade with only book reports on Goosebumps. Welp this is for you.

The event is inspired by the Netflix trilogy Fear Street. In case you were wondering what IS that?!

The wait in line is dreadful but it's beautifully put together. We got there and one Earl Grey Ice blended from Urth cafe later, & a conversation about sleep and what the other two films will be about. We found ourselves looking up at this beautiful neon sign. 

Fear Street ~ It read our eyes dilating with anticipation, wearing our jackets as if it was our armor to fight off the monsters we were going to encounter inside. My stomach turned a bit, & I felt a bit anxious. What if im not brave anymore? What if i actually scream? What if Eddie screams? Dammit. I am laughing as i type this guise. 

The guy in the front said alright come on in, they were letting everyone go in groups of 4 or 6. But it was just us two. 

We stepped inside and were immediately transported to a darker version of a blockbuster. 

Rows and rows of horror films on display. 

We were handed a light and then every soul for themselves. 

The lights kept going in & out and we made a couple turns and there was people dressed as the skull mask serial killers that made me feel like we were stars in a misfits music video. 

One of them started following us and Eddie pushed me and proceeded to almost start jogging infront of me. He's like "that guy back there is following us!" 

And I was like "hey its okay"

But my heart started pounding .....i was scared. Wtf. 

I'd rather not talk about the rest because then there wont be any mystery left if you yourself the reader decides to explore this fun little pop up. Tis free & you can get yourself some coffee while you wait....

Don't expect some 15 min. walk through you can get through it in 5 min or less. 

I arrived home smiling from ear to ear. 

July felt like October. 

I guess you can say we're doing summerween right. 

P.s. 

I also snapped a photo of 

the cool membership card & tote bag they handed us during the experience. 

How sweet! The bag also had some spooky pins on it. 

Here's a recent photo of me... 

Till next time.